She didn't know what to think. Leading her on and then kissing another girl didn't help the problem. What was she going to do now. They told her to forget, but she couldn't. Every time he passed her in the hallway she couldn't help but to look at him and wonder what he was doing to her heart. He noticed her and gave her a skeptical look and then smiled the most charming smile she had ever seen. Didn't he know she was trying to forget everything that had ever happen between them. As the days went on she avoided him and his beautiful blue eyes, it took all the strength she had to go the long way to class to make sure that she wouldn't see him. The memories were slowly forgotten. Just like she thought she had wanted. She was finally able to just focus on school and basketball like she had planned, but she missed him. She longed for the memories to come flooding back but they wouldn't.

She went what felt like months without seeing his sparkling blue eyes or his charming smile. She told herself she didn't need him right now. She was fine, or so she thought. But he thought differently. He wanted all those moments they shared to happen again. He made it his goal to figure out the way she walked to class and then make it work so he could pass by her everyday. She noticed him every once in a while and thought nothing of it until the night of the big rival football game when he took off his helmet and stood right in front of her and gazed into her dark brown eyes. She noticed him standing there and decided she couldn't take it anymore. She left and hoped he would get the hint that she wanted nothing to do with him. Lucky for her, he didn't. He caught up to her at school and grabbed her by the arm. Taken by surprise she whipped her body around wondering who was there. She turned and there he was standing right in front of her. The memories flooded back and she looked at him in awe. "You've sure been hard to find, where have you been" he said lovingly. With a smile she said "anywhere you haven't."  He laugh "I noticed, it must have taken a lot of work to keep your distance." " You have no idea" she laughed.  

Disney Goes Gangster

Sometimes I listen to rap, like right before a basketball game because it makes me mad and pumps me up. I only like maybe two songs until I heard Under The Sea by Timeflies Tuesday, and now I like three. 

Don't listen to their other songs. They're naughty.

Superman

Have you ever heard the song Superman by Five for Fighting? Well it sums up my last two years completely. The lyrics go something like this:

I can't stand to fly 
I'm not that naive 
I'm just out to find 
The better part of me 

I'm more than a bird... I'm more than a plane 
I'm more than some pretty face beside a train 
And it's not easy to be me 

I wish that I could cry 
Fall upon my knees 
Find a way to lie 
About a home I'll never see 

It may sound absurd... but don't be naive 
Even heroes have the right to bleed 
I may be disturbed... but won't you concede 
Even heroes have the right to dream 
And it's not easy to be me  
Up, up and away... away from me 
Well it's all right... you can all sleep sound tonight 
I'm not crazy... or anything... 

I can't stand to fly 
I'm not that naive 
Men weren't meant to ride 
With clouds between their knees 

I'm only a man in a silly red sheet 
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street 
Only a man in a funny red sheet 
Looking for special things inside of me 
Inside of me 
Inside of me 
Yeah, inside of me 
Inside of me 

I'm only a man 
In a funny red sheet 
I'm only a man 
Looking for a dream 

I'm only a man 
In a funny red sheet 
And it's not easy, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm... 

It's not easy to be me

Dear Boy

They say girls are confusing, but I think trying to figure out a boy is even harder.
According to everyone I know I'm still to young to like boys. Guys I'm fifteen I think I can handle those creatures we call boys. I have four brothers, I know how teenage boys are so you don't need to worry about me. That leads me to this:

Dear Boy,
 What is going on? I'm so confused. On Thursday in basketball you subbed out right after me. You never sub out, and in this game you subbed twice. That NEVER happens. Then you came and stood by me. Don't think i didn't notice you looking at me. In the hallways we always make eye contact. During the football game on Friday we made eye contact more than five times, and you were playing. Don't be hurt if I don't smile back, life's kicking my trash right now. School stresses me out sometimes. You're smiles make me happy, they really do. I don't know what to do? But I think I'm falling for you?

Homecoming...

it makes for good facebook. That's all I have to say.

Meet Eli

                             



                                                                    






He stole my heart about a month ago when I got to meet him. Can't you tell we're related?

This Fine Day

You've never been the one person I can't seem to get out of my head. Honestly you've never been there before. We were just on the same basketball team in P.E. I told you what drives me crazy during  basketball games, so when the teams got switched you made sure to do just that. Then I got subbed out, so you made sure to make me laugh from the sideline. We're just friends so I thought nothing of it. Today was a day of firsts for me. We jogged together today, for the record I won. Then during the three-on-three tournament today we made eye contact a few times. I thought nothing of it. But when you passed me in the hall and I noticed you looking at me and then when our eyes locked for those few split seconds and time stood still, you better believe that I started to think. Remember how you've never taken a trip inside my head, today that all changed today.
"We're just friends", she whispered. "Just friends."