It Aint Love if it Can't Break Your Heart

Two days changed the way I think about everything now. 

Maybe it was staying up with the one person I love most, while he treated me like I was the most important person in this whole wide world. 

He taught me a lesson at two in the morning. A lesson that will change my life. If someone wants to be in my life, they'll show me that. 

This weekend was the best one yet. The memories are mine, and I can never forget them. 

I Never Knew I Could Love Someone Like I Love You

You know that feeling you get when you "love" someone so much that it hurts to be away from them? Well, that's practically my life right now. Weekends kill!
I'm not going to lie, after what happened with my heart last time, I'm hesitant when it comes to giving it away again. But, he's proven that my heart and all the flaws that. One with it would be well protected. I can trust him.
Somedays, he meets me in the hallways and we turn the two minute walk to my third hour class into a five minute walk. I take those days for granted, and I know I shouldn't because, before I know it, he is going to be a serventof of The Lord preaching the gospel to the people somewhere that will seem so far away. Eventually, I'm going to be living letter to letter or email to email, and that day is going to come way too soon.
I talk like he is already mine. Most days, it feels like he is, but...he isn't.
On a different note, I've been listening to Christmas music all day. Im so ready for the most magical time of the year. It going to be pretty great.

As Long as We're Together, It Doesn't Matter

Hey guess what, I really am alive. My life has been a crazy, CRAZY, one for the last month and a half. 

I'm juts busy with the usual high school life and college classes that I thought would be "fun."

I'd be lying if I said that my Bio 171 or something like that wasn't my favorite class.

I'd also be lying if I said that I wasn't happy, because in reality, I really am. 

I find it hard to listen to Tracy Chapman and not sing at obnoxiously loud volumes, because her music is just do catchy, and I love it.

Sometimes I'm really bad at taking a hint. I probably would have held hands with that really cute quarterback that goes to my school by now, if it wasn't for my lack of knowledge when it comes to romantic situations. It was the homecoming game, and yes, there were fireworks.

I'm stealing Joey for my birthday. I'm seriously driving to Seattle and kidnapping her in January. Its more like we are meeting halfway and she is coming to stay with me for a week, or something like that. I couldn't be more excited.

Can you believe that it is almost November? I cant. These last few months have flown by. If you asked me what has happened, I wouldn't be able to tell you because all I do is take pictures, do homework, go to football games and take more pictures and edit them. Oh and I take naps on a daily basis.

My seminary teachers think it is funny to talk about the "M" word with me. What word might that be. Marriage. Yuck.  I will admit that now that I know all these people getting married, I get marriage hungry, but then I remember that I actually dont want to be married and I go back to a normal high school girl.

Homecoming was this weekend. I didn't go, but my favorite part is sunday night at about 8:37 when all the pictures are on facebook and then I spend hours looking at everybody and their mom's pictures. You better believe that I'm living that single life!

Basketball starts in three weeks. I'm already dreading it. I have a serious love-hate relationship with that sport. Right now its mostly hate. 

Ellie Goulding is blasting in my room and I blame her for my scatter-brained thoughts. Its more  likely because it is way past my bed time, but...lets not talk about it.

Peace out, homedogs. I'm going to bed.

Missing You

Sleep drowned my eyes, but I was still very much awake.
I took a journey to the exotic land of Brazil, to come visit you. I found you sitting among the brazilains, talking and laughing and teaching the gospel. It came so natural to you. You sat there and I was overcome with emotion. Being within ten feet of you was something i never thought would happen. Slowly, I approached you and gently spoke your name. You turned, it was you, the real you. You pulled me into the biggest hug I had ever received and tears filled both of our eyes. It was so real, nothing was going to ever tear us apart. We would be together forever. At that moment everything was okay. There were no worries.
Sleep slowly drifted and I was pulled from your arms. I screamed, and cried to go back, back where I was safe, back where I could be with you.
I awoke with tears in my eyes. I miss him like crazy, so much that it hurts.

My Favorite Things

Guess what. I'm a creep. I worked hard for this picture. 

It's football season. I love football season.

 The cold air, the falling leaves, the excitement it adds to everyday,

the sweaty boys (maybe only one sweaty boy.)

So, there's a boy. I feel like all I write about is boys.

There have only been three in the last year.

Anyway this boy,

He is a keeper. 

I'm a Photographer Now

I cant believe it either. It's official. I take pictures of people, and nature, and all sorts of things now. It's a little bit crazy to think about it, but my dream is coming true.
Here are a few pictures of the beautiful people I have taken pictures for.

The Raddon Family

The Beautiful SkylanRai

If you like what you see, you can check out my photography blog here.

I Need My Man

This week is all a blur. I've only been to school for a day and a half this week. Let's not talk about it.

Cam the Man, my best friend (or my man), left for his mission on Wednesday morning. I haven't stopped crying, I miss him so much. I sure love that boy.

I'm falling for that oh so cute boy that sits in the very back seat, in the row next to the wall, in Brother Peterson's sixth hour Seminary class.

Tonight was the first football game of the season. It was so hard to watch, I couldn't imagine Cam not playing. I made it though with no tears. We won. Oh and that one cute boy, mentioned above, had an amazing game.