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Best day of my life.

SKY.

IS.

COMING.

HOME.

ON.
FRIDAY.

 

Honestly, I'm not sure if I could make it through this week without her.

 

Nope, We Are Not Going to Say "It"

A wise boy once said:

"Never say goodbye, because saying goodbye means going away, and going away means forgetting."

-Peter Pan

Trapped

You leave me in nine days. I took for granted the time we had together. Now that there is not much left, I want it all back. Three months seemed like a long time when you got here, it flew by. 

Girls dream for a guy like you to come along. I was lucky enough to have you.

Don't forget me. 

August couldn't come quick enough. 

I already miss you, us, the way you make the butterflies in my stomach come alive, and the smile you spread across my face.

I don't know how I am going to survive this summer, alone. 

You leaving helps our relationship grow, but at this point all I can see is the sadness that comes with saying goodbye.

You'll be back, you've promised. You keep your promises. I know you do. 

I'm trapped. 

Sitting here, thinking. Thinking of you. Thinking of me. Thinking of us. 

I don't imagine I'll get much sleep tonight. 

Goodbye, my almost lover.

Make A Difference

I'm Going There Someday

Just recently I was told by a man that is not scared to tell me what I need to hear, or let things slide, that in three in a half years I would be engaged to be married. I almost died. Not out of excitement, but rather fear of him being right.  Although I love love, and the thought of being in love, there is no way that in three and a half years, this girl, being nineteen then, will be ready to be somebody's cute little wifey. No way I tell you.

I haven't let that topic escape, it's been on my mind nonstop for the last three days. So rather than let the though fear me, I've decided to embrace it, even though it is not likely. So if I do get married when I'm nineteen feel free to tell me I told you so.

It'd be silly for me to say that I haven't found that boy that makes a smile spread across my face just thinking about him. Or the one where I can just be my crazy self with. Or the one who gives me butterflies when I see his face. The boy who would hold me close and tell me everything is going to be okay, when I am certain it is not. The one who makes me feel like I am loved. The one whom I love.

Cow Tongue? I Guess It's Pretty Good

I went out on a limb today. I toured Fiesta Foods, while speaking the language that seems to flow right off my tongue. I toured it with my best friend. We searched high and low for Bueno Bars, Marias and Pan Dulce. We found it all, and gained like twenty pounds each. I tried  new food, like papaya, which tastes like throw up, and we were about to eat a lengua de carne taco, a cow tongue taco, but the line got super long. Trust me, it looked amazing and I'm being serious. We seem to go on adventures like this quite frequently. We are partners in crime. We are constantly cracking jokes. We understand completely what each other is going through because we have to deal with the same problems. It's so great! She's so great!

                                        We don't like to take good picture, it just doesn't work.

Boring, Boring, Boring

Its been so long since I last wrote. So many crazy things have happened lately that I don't even know where to start. I guess that means that this is going to be a lame update post, but bear with me, maybe it will lead to something really great.

 Lets start off with... My best friend

She has a boy friend. I don't know how I feel about that. I'm just going to be the AWKWARD third wheel for the rest of forever, its a good thing I'm good at that. It's going to be okay though because im going to be gone all summer so that gives them time to break up figure things out and not invite me to third wheel it. Although im good at it, I may or may not enjoy it.

Lets talk about my summer. I'm only free for a week or so in August, so if you want to chill, make plans now. But seriously I'm at camps and in Utah and all over the place in Washington and Oregon and Utah.

Gotta love the North West. Oh and .....

I GOT A JOB!!!!! That's the main reason why I'm not going to be "home" as much as I thought I would. This job is going to take every little piece of energy out of me, so I dont plan on doing anything for the four weeks that I am working, but it is going to be so great! I cannot wait till next week when I start.

My group of friends has changed over the last month. I have new best friends who I text nonstop and hang out with almost daily. We seem to have the best of times together. It's wonderful.

Typical me... There is a boy. He's at my house at least three times a week. He's moving back to Utah in two weeks. This boy isn't just a plain old crush. It's more like my head and my heart are at war. Im fighting, and its worth it, even though it is scary and stressful and I'd rather not be fighting right now. I'm not willing to let go. I'm not sure how I'm going to make it till August till I see him again. Skype? Maybe, or maybe when Im in his neck of the woods, I'll just go see him. Who know. All I know is it it real and I am falling.

The only downside to this is that it is finals week and the stress levels are flying. I have at least three super hard finals. Like study your guts out hard, like the smartest kind in the class thought it was hard. The last week of school was suppose to be fun, but that took a whole new meaning when i got to high school.

ITS THE LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL! I cannot wait to kick off my crazy summer.

My new best friend is going to be in Texas all summer. I dont know how I am going to survive without her. like really, what am i going to do?

I decided that I wanted to live in Cali and be a painter and a teacher. That would be the life! I've taken on a new skill. I paint, and I love it.

Cam the Man graduated on Friday. Do you know how crazy that is. My older brother, who I love, most of the time, is a graduate. I dont know what I will do without him next year. He really is the best.

This week started off great, lets hope it stays like this.

Oh and I wrote my 101 things to do this summer list. I'll update it here.