17 Days. Almost

Its crazy to think that in just 17 short days my life is completely different then what it was before. Seventeen days is just long enough to step back and realize that life isn't suppose to be all about getting good grades and being a perfect person. Lets face it, perfection isn't coming anytime soon so quit believing that if you aren't perfect you aint getting anywhere in life because that is the biggest lie that I have ever heard.Oh and good grades, i might be trying till i die to get an A in chemistry and geometry.
You know that its ironically taken me 15 years to realize that pretty is as pretty does. I use to be told that almost ever day and its so true. You cannot expect to be seen with a beautiful outside if your inside is full of trash.
Seventeen days is just enough time to figure out the way you really feel about others and the way others feel about you. Yes, i'm talking about boys here. Remember that one boy that I wanted to go night surfing with? I thought that I would have at least held his hand by now, if not kiss him. Guess what, I realized that he is more like a brother to me and that I really dont want to kiss him or hold his hand anymore. Dont get me wrong I still love him. Ill always love him. And coming to terms with my discovery about our relationship was really hard for me. Trust me when I say that he never thought of me as any more than a friend and I just fell to hard.
Believe me when I say that the people that you think know you, dont necessarily know you. For me, this was getting over being shy and just letting my voice be heard. Dont live life afraid to talk to people. Get to know people. Talk to people that you never thought you would ever talk to again after you got out of middle school. I promise they aren't as bad as they use to be. Let your voice be heard.
Almost 17 days is just enough time to decide that you aren't going to be ashamed of who you are. Almost 17 days is enough time to decide that your daily goal is to stay beautiful, which is much more than just being pretty on the outside.

P.S Elder Egbert's letter is still sitting on my desk.

                                                 This song is a keeper. Listen to it 25 times.