Why are you still on my mind? I hardly know you, yet I feel like i've known you forever. The thought of you might just be the death of me. I'm trying to sort things out and when I think I have it all figured out BAM the thought of you pops into my mind and everything is up in the air again. The memories of our conversations flash in and out of my mind. STOP! I scream in frustration. This is impossible. I cant do it. I grab my well used tennis shoes and slip them on. Jog. Sprint. Cry. Jog. Sprint. Cry. The cycle goes on until i can no longer run and my lungs almost collapse. Slowly the tears, already caressing my face, start coming quicker. Jog. Sprint. Cry. I don't stop. Fighting the feelings, I sprint to my yard and collapse. It's no longer sadness. The anger wells inside of me. The cycle repeats yet again. Crazy in love, then upset, and then raging anger. Over and over again. Never stopping. Emotions rapidly change, but find them self locked inside my heart. I say i'm over him. I lie.
"I can't live without you, I can't live without you, baby."
I fight it like a wildebeest being attacked by a lion. I tell myself i CAN and i WILL live without you, but I know i cant. The problem is you are 2000 miles away, or so it seems. My heart longs for me to be in your presence. It will be a while till that happens again, making the pain seem even more excruciating.
"Baby I'm not moving on, I'll love you long after you're gone"
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